Confessions

“We’re going to be late, you know?” He said. “You better go get ready. I’ll wait for you.”

I hurriedly threw on some clothes, some makeup to cover the red, swollen eyes and ran a comb through my hair. I didn’t look the greatest but at least it was an improvement. We were out the door ten minutes later and pulled into the office parking lot only about five minutes after eight. Not too bad for the morning I had. I started to reach for the handle and get out and Ben grabbed my arm and pulled me back.

“Um,” he started. “Should we talk about what happened?”

“What did happen? I’m not sure I know.”

“I’m attracted to you, Addy. I always have been. Brad just always stood in the way.”

“And Gina. What about Gina? I don’t want to be the other woman. I can’t be. I know how much that hurts.”

“Gina moved out.”
“When?”

“About two weeks ago. It wasn’t working. It hadn’t been for awhile. She knew I had feelings for you. I guess I wasn’t that good at hiding them.”

“I never knew.”

“Well, I guess I was better than I thought then.”

“I don’t know, Ben.”

“If I was any good?”

“No. If we should talk about what happened. Let’s just leave it at it happened and play it by ear.”

“I don’t want to play it by ear. I want you to give me a chance. I want to be with you, Addy.”

“We’re late.” I opened the door and practically hurdled out of the car and into the office. I turned around once I came into the front door to see if Ben was behind me but he wasn’t. He was just getting out of the car looking defeated. I hated seeing that look on his face – one I had caused but I just couldn’t deal with this right now. I was too much of a wreck to think about what he had asked.